Too much and not enough

 Time..... 

 When I look back on life, my life, I think of all the people I’ve known and who’s names I don’t remember.  All those people, friends, acquaintances like a Venn diagram we touched and overlapped for a while and then spun away.  

Complicated Feelings

 Prince Phillip died today at 99 years old.  He and Queen Elizabeth have been married for almost 74 years. I am not his biggest fan - he was arrogant,  had public affairs because he was frustrated with the role he was required to play, and seems to have tortured Prince Charles to toughen him up.  But, all that being said, I don’t agree with mocking people in death. I’ve seen some really tasteless memes and the man died 6 hours ago.  

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I’m trying to write every day, even if it’s just a few sentences. Hopefully I’ll be able to be interesting often enough that I won’t bore myself.....

Moving Forward....

  We’re back in lockdown - this is the 4th time since March 2020.  I’m tired, tired, tired.  

CBC had an article on the effects of isolation on all of.  It said that self regulation requires effort and at this point in the pandemic we’re all very tired of regulating our emotions and so people are giving up.  So, so, so tired,

Moving Forward

Struggling with the idea of doing my photography program mostly online.  I really, really, really wanted an opportunity to get outside and meet new people and develop some new skills.

Happy birthday to me

 I’m 59 today.  I’m now older than my brother Darcy when he died.  

I had cake and presents and cards and, a ton of love on Facebook.  When I sat down to write this post I felt okay but..... grief is a sneaky bastard.  So many people who are out of birthdays and I’ve seen more birthdays than I have left to celebrate.  

COVID-19 sucks so much joy from the world.  Ontario has fucked around with closures and lockdowns, and stay at home orders, so we’re worse off than other provinces who put rules in place and stuck to them.

I’m hopefulcranky and wishingtired.  

Things I think about

 Watching Sunday Morning yesterday and one of the segments was titled, ‘Agree to Disagree’.  It was about the power of conversation, getting people together to thoughtfully discuss difference and I was frustrated with the Kumbiya vibe.  Sometimes it’s not just a difference of opinion, it’s standing up for human rights and challenging hate and bigotry.  Denying someone’s humanity isn’t an opinion, it’s hate speech; thinking that people who are different colours, ethnicities, sexualities, genders, are less than you isn’t so et we can agree to disagree on.  Bigots need to be challenged and sanctioned when they spew their shit, full stop.

Denying people access to services and jobs because you think they’re less valid than you must stop.  Those views must be challenged and smashed.  The world can’t move forward until we are all equal.